Idhaiyum Kaadhal Enbadha...

Topic suggested by vennila on Sat Jan 30 06:55:17 .
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Enakku vaazhkaila veruppu vandhuduchu pOlarukku, pinna En ippadi unarRen? AppadiyE ellAthaiyum vittuttu mEgathu mEla pOi unkAndhukkalaamAnnu irukku! adhu mudiyAdhu ennAlannu dhAn idhai ezhudhikkittu irukkEn...'O'-nnu kaththanum pOla irukku. OOOOO!

Ellaathukkum kaaranam indha sriraamOda snEgamdhAn. Paavi. Adhenna...pathinaaru vayasula thuLLina maadhiriye ippavum thuLLaren? oru muppadhu vayasu maadhiriyA nadandhukkarEn? aAnalum adhula thappillai Enna manasukkudhAn mooppE illaiyE. adhu thideernu kizhavanaa maarum thideernu kumaranaa maarum. naa solla vandhadhe ippa konja naala enakkirukkira thavippum, edhirpaarppum, mukkiyamA nethu avan pEchu vaakula kEtta kElviyum
adhanaala naa varumnu bayappadara vilaivugalumdhaan...marubadiyum ivanaiyum tholaichuduvEnO?

NEthu avan kitta pEsinadhula irundhu manasu-la lesA oru thudippu irundhuttE irukku. Naa enna edhirpakkiren? Ippavum uLLukkuLLa nadungittudhaan irukku. Kadaisiya avan andhak kElviya kEttappO naa summa irundhirukkak koodhadhu. "enna solreenga neenga" - appadinnu kettirukkanum. KObapadaamE summa sirichittu irundhadhu 'pugaiyilaiyai virichaa' madhiri ayiduchu. Sari ippa adhanaala enna kettu pochu? eppavO theriya vendiyadhu ippavE therinjiduchunnu ninaichukkOyen? Adhu sari, eppavO muriyavendiya uravu ippavE murinjidichunnu vena nanaichukkaren! Avan budhisaali, naa maruppu edhuvum sollaadhadha sariyaa purinjittiruppaan. adhanaala ennai veruthu vilagaama irundhaa sari. Appappa! ethanai perOda vilagalaithan thaangaradhu, ethanai naalaikkudhaan thaangaradhu? Sami kitta oru kadidham ezhudhi vachirukken. NeengalE irangi vaanga enakku Etra roobathulannu. Parrkalaam eppa varRaarnu. Avar kitta oru ketta pazhakkam. eppavumE sollittu varRadhilla.

Chattunnu manasu sivaramanai ninaikkidhu. Adhu padhinanju padhinaaru vayasula aarambichu padhinettu varai en varaiyila thodarndhuttudhaan irundhudhu...collegela nuzhaiyara varaikkum! Andha pathu padhinOraam class naatakalai ninaichaalE ippavum manasu ennama inikkidhu. Andha inippila oru vidha thrill ippavum irukkave irukku. AppO ellaam en manasu eppavum oru layathula, oru kaadhal vayappatta bhavathulayE irukkum. Mudhalla avanai avvaLava theriyAdhu. en class-la pudhusaa vandhu serndhirundhaan. pazhaga aarambikkira naatkal. avan dhinamum seekkirama school-kku vandhuduvaannu mattum theriyum. Enakku nyaabagam irundhu naa school-kku seekkiram pOna naatkaL andha naatkaLdhan! avanai dhoorathula paarthuttaalE enakku inga oru thaLLaamai vandhudum! Avan pakkathula irukkaradhE, avanai parthuttu irukkaradhE, avan pesaradhai kettuttu irukkaradhE oru sugam...summa nikkumpOdhu kooda avan kai viralgaLlE en viralgalai kOthukkittE ninnurukkEn...cycle-la doubles pOgumpOdhu naa munnadi ukkaandhukka avan Ottittu pOna naatkal...naa kavalaiyE padamE avan mela sainjukkittE irundhirukken...road-la nadakkum pOdhu, avan kaigalai thOlla mAlaiya pOttukittu indha pakkam innoru kaiyAla avan viralgalai pidichikkittE nadandhirukken...

Enakku sparisathula perum nambikkai undu. Anbai kaamikkaradhukku thodu unarchipp parimaaral irukkanumnu nambaravan naan. Adhanaala mudinja alavukku avanai nerungidhaan nippEn (adhukkaaga aduthavanga sandEgap padara alavukku eeshikkittu illa). Kitta nerungi nikkumpOdhu, yaarai nerungi nikkirOmO avanga udal aadhikkathukkuLLa naama vandhuttadha (namakku) thOnum. Adhai oru 'sense of belonging to them' ne vEnA sollalaam. Adhu enakku eppOdhaikkumEnnu aagidaadhaannu irukkum. YOsichu paarthaa, naan enakku pidichavangalukku ennaiyE kodukkaradhukku eppavumE thayaaraadhaan irundhirukkEn.

AanA naa konjam avasara kudukkai pOngalEn. en unarvu, uNarchigalOda theeviram seekkiramE therinju edhiraaLi edhiriyaa maariduvaan! Kaadhal-a enakku pakkuvamaa kaai nagarthath theriyaadhu, varaadhu! pakkuvappatta manasukku nidhaanam theriyum. Kaadhal-la nidhaanichu seiyara edhuvumE iyalbaa irukka mudiyaadhu. Andhandha nodippozhudhu unarvudhaan, viLaivudhaan kaadhal. Appadi urugaradhum, piragu marugaradhumE vaazhkkaiyaa pOyittadhu enakku andha naatkaLla...

Enna sollittirundhen? Aaan... sivaraamanai pathi illaiya, illai illai avan mEla enakkirundha uNarvu (adhukku naa vecha pEr kaadhal) pathi illaiya...oru naal ippadidhaan EdhO oru soozhnilaiyila naa avanai vechu ezhudiyirndhadhai ellaam, andha 'karpanaich chorgangalai' ellaam avan paarkka nErndhadhu. padichittu, 'payithiyamda nee'-nnu sonnaan. paadhi dhaagathula thanniya pidungina maadhiri irundhudhu. Ippa avan US-la Florida-la irukkaan. Idhula vEdikkai ennannA he's a psychologist! Eppavaavadhu avan ennai ninaichuppaanaannu ippavum thOnum.

Naanum mathavanga maadhiri ulagathu parlance-la 'normal'-aa pirandhirukkalaamEnnu thOnum. Appavum pOraattangaL irukkumdhaan. AanA adhai sandhikkaradhula oru kayamai kalandhirukkaadhu. Velippadaiya seiya mudiyaadha edhuvumE oru vidha kayamaiththanamdhaanE?

Ippallaam enakku vaazhkkaiyila irukkira orE periya prachanai naandhaan! Prachanai-nnu solradhu thappu. 'Challenge'-nnu sollalaam. AdhOda mudivu eppadi irukkumnu theriyalai. Adhu eppadi irundhaalum adhai vetri tholvindra rendu migavum abaththamaana pirivugaLla ennaala serkka mudiyaadhu: Edhu nadandhaalum adhudhaan nigazha irundhudhunnu eduthuppEn.

Ippa sriraam kEtta kElvikku varuvOm...avan enna kEttiruppaannu appadiyE theriyaattaalum adhu edhai pathi irukkumnu innEram ungalukkE oru maadhri purinjirukkum. Adhai naa vEra edhukku sollikkitu?


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